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5-4-25 (May 4Ril be with you)

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So this will be the last post talkin' about race (for now...) (Yeah right). 

I do want to talk more about hip hop and what's goin on with me. Well, this is all related. I've lived my life my entire life, so I think I know what I'm talkin' about. Some people think, "Who is he to talk this stuff? He's not qualified!" So if I took a class from a white professor on race relations and genetics, then I could talk about it? Even it if were a black professor, does it matter? I learn my info and live my info.

So I don't think I'm racist. I'm racist against an idea of race. We have cultures, and people. That's it. No need to categorize based on color. I'm proof skin color doesn't equal race. Well kinda but not really....

I was talking about genes before (and alot) because that matters more than an overall "race". Know your actually genetic history, Don't just slap a color on it...And I'm not talkin' a genetic test. Live your grandparents traditions, are their traditions.

I'm japanese, puerto rican, russian on my mom side. White on my dads side. I'm considered mixed, but it was always difficult to pick one because of, well I'm not just one. Am I parts of a person? Or am I just a human? Who knows... Maybe if I have enough babies, I will create a new race. That's all puerto ricans are: a mix of african, native, and spanish. Spanish are mixed white european, arab, and northern african... ect. I got a dozen different group of ancestors giving me powers.

So do I really care about race? Yes, and no. I think its more cultural then anything. I told my mom at one point I couldn't marry a white chick. Now I may have just been harsh at the time, but it wasn't out of hate. More of a self realization, like I don't think I'd fit in. To their family or their lifestyle or culture (or lack of in some cases...)

Nowdays I don't care, and I don't think I ever really did. Its not like I don't find white women attractive. Not as a generalization, I mean as individuals. Of course there are some. I don't have a type, any good looking woman that likes me for me. That's what it comes down to. For me. Not cause I'm white, or because I'm not white. In that case, I'm screwed either way. 

Sometimes I think I don't want to whiten my already whitened bloodline. If I went with a black girl, I'd whiten her bloodline, and I'd feel guilty. There's nobody similar to me, so I'm gonna mix up genes either way. I think its ok. Maybe. If any girl wants to treats me like a king, who am I to say no? I'm not trying to have kids now so whatever. 

My family is mixed for at least 3 or more generations on my mom side (Grandpa - Puerto Rican + Russian) Mom (that + Japanese) Sister and Me (that + white), well 4 now with my niece. (Us + Black/native). I told my sisters husband, all he did was rebalance the bloodline. That's why my niece looks more like my mom then sister. And I look more like my grandpa then my dad. Things skip generations, its still in the dna. Again cant judge racial makeup based on looks. 

There are physical signs tho. Squinty eyes are asian. Right? Well notice a lot of Africans have squinty eyes. That's actually where it came from. Even white people here in America have squnity eyes. They probly have chinese ancestry from the railroad days or native ancenstry (who many have asian dna). If you have brown or black hair, you're mixed. Speakin of asian dna, lets get this out the way, if anyone thinks of dicks, and you're a guy, you're gay. You can ask your girl to come and find out. Never had complaints, actually opposite...I think if anything there is too much soy in an asian diet, feminizing the males. Soy mimics estrogen. And is bad in excess for men and women. Women it will replace your natural estrogen and hault your body's production.

A lot of white people want to agree that racism needs to go away. But can they handle not being white anymore. Can they hop off the pedestal for a day? Can they afford to lose their magic card?

I don't agree with everything that nation of islam says. I'm not a member. I do agree with some things tho. Racial pride is important when that's what youre categorized by. I just learn from all aspects, and it is definately a part of hip hop. Fard Muhammad was a mystery man, but his jail record say he was possibly born in Portland, OR. There are records of him living in Eugene and Salem. So the energy of that is here, yet very unknown. My brother in law who was a member didn't even know he was from here. They talk like he just popped up in Detroit. Oregon is the ONLY state banning black people. Period. We didn't have slaves because they knew they'd be free soon. Asians couldn't own land and went to Washington and California. The Natives were killed and pushed to little reservations. Have you wondered why Oregon is this white? They wanted it to be a white paradise. Speaking of racial paradise I got a joke: Most black power groups talk about a black paradise with only black people. Well then where would they get the white women they love so much?

Most racial power groups don't want violence. Just equality. That's why they want segregation sometimes. So that they can do what THEY want without effecting others. Its about mind your own business, and we'll mind ours. That should be the  options: racial segregate if they want (we already force it thru systematic racism,  like native reservations. Took their land then said you can live here. Where else are they gonna go?) At least they'd be running their own community, OR let people have mixed neighborhoods. I can't fit into any racial group so I have no choice but to assimilate into white culture at times. And you know what, I don't care. You have to balance life. It shouldn't be only white as the base tho. That's my problem.

Also be yourself and pretty soon they're gonna want to assimilate into our cultures. They already do actually. And when that happens, then you can set the rules. Its your house.

Sometimes, white people shit weirds me out. I think its more of a misunderstanding most of the time. Like maybe they don't mean to be weird. They're just white. I think a lot of racism is confusion. "Why do white people do this? Why are black people doing that? Why are asians... Why do .... blah blah blah." You get it.

Like eye contact. White people latch on eye contact like theyre doin a fuckin eye exam. Or like their reading your soul. That's why Native americans don't look into the eye, it steals the soul. Japanese culture is sililar. Eye contact is seen as agressive. Or too personal. If me or my mom looks each other in the eye, our first reaction is, "What?" as in "What's wrong?" White people look each other in the eye sometimes and don't even say anything. It is a signal for communication or just to read faces? I don't know....Street culture in general you don't look people in the eyes, yet you also can't look away at times. When you look someone in the eye, means you want something. Like come over here, or I got a problem with you, or what are you doing? Now days, you can't give a fellow "colored" person a friendly look without them thinking you're gay. So you have to look tough, then they think you wanna fight. So you just don't look at each other unless talking. See, no culture is right or wrong. Just different. 

There's no way you can exist in hip hop without dealing with white people. Even the most pro-black, anit-white rapper has white fans, white label owners, white engineers probly, white owned venues, ect. So we all know that "kill the white man" shit ain't literal. (Well...) My point is, to be in hip hop being around white people sometimes helps. Imagine only watching hood shit all the times. Only watching black films, and never watching anything else. That's whats wrong with hip hop. Its one sided. At the same time, a lot have forgot that this is black culture and you need to respect the foundation. Its the core vibe. Pro-black is hip hop.

Same time, look at Eminem. He's one of the best rappers. Let's get rid of the label "best" because that's opinion. But fact is he had a successful career. Is it because he's white? Maybe. Well yes. Even he said it. But if he was wack, they'd pick the next good white rapper. Which would be.... Uhhhhh. You get the point I hope. Get rid of the white label, and he's a good rapper. Being white also can kill a hip hop career before it even begins.

Its starts in the mindset.

Switch things up. Maybe certain genres are for only a certain group until someone stirs it up. Golf was white until Tiger, a black-asian hybrid showed up and shut shit down. Until the white women got to him.... Ah, the weakness of many men... 

Just be you. Don't force yourself to not be a race. Fuck stereotypes, sometimes that's just you being you . Also don't force be a race. Just do what feel right. Loosen up. Speak your mind. This is America right? Where you can say anything. Unless it offends anyone. So lets all just talk vague and happy, fuck that.

Someone asked me , or kinda told me, hip hop needs the f word.  I agree and disagree. Its just another word to me. To not swear is fake, or forced. To swear just to swear is stupid. Just use them like any other word. Meaning use them when called for. Sometimes fuck that, hits harder then foget that. Sometimes you feel like shit. Sometimes its the best way to say it.

And that's like this blog. Sometimes its not the "right" way to say it. But it's how I feel, so it's right. Even if its not all right, its right. Alright? Right.

Ok so I'm done for now. Well, one more thing, I want to talk about growing up in hip hop. If hip hop is American black culture. Then its American culture. Its also a youth culture. The youth doesn't care about race. So its American culture. (And I say this with the most pro-black stance on hip hop.) What I'm sayin, is a black kid, white kid, mexican kid, and asian kid are all listening to hip hop. And enjoying it. And learning it. So teach the kids while they're still young to not to be racist. They will get it. Start puttin knowledge in the music. If I rap about killing the opps, ok cool. If I talk generic raical equality bullshit, that's cheesy and easy. Let's talk about sometin Real. 4 Ril 

Last words: Shout out to every fan. White, black, orange, green, Whatever. The ladies of course. you've been very supportive. As well as even gay fans. I'm not "pro" gay in anyway, I'm not goin' out of my way to hate either. So if you're a fan, that's what yo are to me. A fan first. All that other shit is secondary...

Shout out to Old World for the open mic. Everyone you know who yo are. I did a poem for the first time. I Felt very anxiuos today. Not like nervous, just spacey and kinda jittery yet groggy. Its partially allergies. Its also frequencies in the air. Ok enough.... Peom vid up later. It was called Keepin it Real. What is keepin it real? Let that be the next topic...........till then go listen to some of my songs. I do make music you know...